"- don't be so quick to knock it. People don't usually part with the weird shit they personally know because they know how easy it will be to punch holes in. Now I'm tellin you somethin. It's for you to poke through the soup and find the meat." John Patrick Shanley's 'the dreamer examines his pillow'

Wednesday, December 01, 2010

They say I'm 'out', but...

I’m having issues with exposing my sexuality. It’s a very personal thing! Is it necessary to make it known to everyone around me? (I understand that during our fight for tolerance, we have to be open about things we might not normally be open about. Doesn't make me like it.) Honestly, I don’t want people to know, not because I'm ashamed, but because it's my own damn business. But I also know they THINK they know unless I tell them otherwise (they assume I like to have sex with boys) but talking about it is not something I’m interested in with anyone other than someone I’m interested in. And I want to explore it MYSELF, I don’t want to have to define it to everyone else. Or have them suddenly define me as something… whether or not I AM that thing (lesbian, queer, whatever) the point is, sexuality is a fluid thing, and should be allowed to be so. Hell, I’m sure most of us has only a vague idea of what we reallllly like and want because we’re so busy defining it for everyone else. Shit.