12:59 am. really, meaningless drivel.

I had fun today just being where I was and enjoying the people around me. I sacrificed all focus on intuition and introspectiveness, but it was fun. and exhausting. I certainly can't live like that my whole life... i think we can't live any one way our whole lives or we get utterly exhausted trying to keep up that prescribed way of life... of course, each of us does get exhausted trying to keep up the way of life we've chosen and/or have in front of us, i just don't think we think about it as much as we could. how cool would it be if we could live by what we really need? I know stability is important to our nature, but what if we could go on a three week (or three hour) vacation if we needed it, or if we were allowed to throw fits every once in a while, or just sleep when our body needs it, or spend five hours painting by the beach in the middle of a "work week" and then walked back into our work far healthier and were embraced by society as human with instinct and spirit as well as order in our bodies and not as mechanical beings...
ah, the ideal world. it will always be in the back of some collective one's head... and i guess without it - well, without it the world would not be what it is, it's as complex and simple as that.