"- don't be so quick to knock it. People don't usually part with the weird shit they personally know because they know how easy it will be to punch holes in. Now I'm tellin you somethin. It's for you to poke through the soup and find the meat." John Patrick Shanley's 'the dreamer examines his pillow'

Friday, April 28, 2006

What I discovered on my bike ride

In order to get through things without being in a victim mindset or feeling "unjustly hurt" or helpless, you must look at them honestly and say, “this is what I have before me.” As frightening as it sounds, if you look at the pile of rocks ahead of you and think “ok. This is what’s next.” and keep your thoughts on just that fact that it is what is it is, not better or worse than the concrete, but different – your body will adjust as it needs to and you will get through.
But if you see and just think “oh no, a pile of rocks. That’s categorized as bad, I’m going to fall,” (or something to that effect, probable something closer to ‘oh shit,’) all your body and mind will do is tense up, and not allow you to get through without misunderstandings, blindness, and mishaps.
Fear is a paralyzer.
We can get through it by admitting what’s in front of our faces.
And yeah, we might misjudge and still get hurt. But at least we can say we knew what we were getting into and we decided to keep going. And we can decide again to keep going, seeing the pain as only part of this moment the universe decided to give us; not as a bad thing, but as part of who we are in this moment.

If we live in denial and always think “oh shit” instead of “ok,” we will think of ourselves as victims. “Oh no, this happened to me, I don’t know how, why me God?” That’s crap. We have the option every minute of opening our eyes to the awkwardness,
the truth,
the challenges,
the homework,
others’ pain,
our own discomfort at the thought of others’ pain…
and it’s a process, because we’ve all been taught to live in denial of the world around us for the sake of being comfortable.


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