note to self

As you may know, over my time in college the idea of my entrance into middle and old age in America has become increasingly frightening, even revolting to me. What I am afraid of is losing the zest in life. the unknown. the will to look and move beyond my own petty existence. However, I have spent so much time worrying about getting there that I have forgotten where I am. If I’m not present in the moment and living the life I want to live right now there’s far less of a chance I’ll live it in the future. I need to take hold of what I have and live a little more existentially, before fear of the future paralyzes the action and potential of the present.

S: You are more wonderful than I could have hoped for, and a constant encouragement. Thank you from the heights and depths of my soul. I love you.

yes i realize this is by far not the most pressing issue in the world but i allow myself to be angry nonetheless:

WTF man?!?

about EVERYTHING, but right now specifically against the decision on the table of our grand Congress to cut CONSIDERABLE amounts of money from the budget supporting student loans... WTF.

I will make it through school somehow, I'm not personally all that worried about the gov. taking my money. In fact, please, take money from my pocket if it's going for a good cause (education, for example...) But the fact that "my" government will take money from my family to decrease a debt from government activities that I feel were prideful, hateful and inhuman just does not sit well in my stomach! And that is by far the least of my causes for concern...
What kind of government is it that preaches freedom and equality and then proceeds to cripple the people who are struggling for those very things? Many of the students who are affected will be poor minorities. Many will have to join the military, countless will have to drop out of school altogether (over 7 million people will be affected by this bill.) How is the government aiding itself and its people by pushing the oppressed poor farther down - DAMN! The reason they need loans is cause they're POOR - why can't you find some f-ing way to take money from the students who don't even need the damn loans!!!
can't we at least creep towards socialism?... please?
if not, then maybe humanity?